The day we met... your tired blue eyes captivated me. The way you presented yourself, the way you spoke to me made me freeze in hesitation but I knew right when we first spoke that you were the same inside as I am, that we were the same kind.

Our first kiss... they always say not to rush things but how couldnt we? I still remember our first kiss, I was so nervous, worried I was a horrible kisser but I so badly, desperatly wanted your lips on mine.. I wanted to taste you. When I kissed you, your eyes widened in a way Ive never seen before, they sparkled.

Dreadful... I could feel that we were losing our spark this night, it was dreadful, knowing an end was coming close. The love was still there even when you werent.. my precious boy, I knew deep down we would meet again.

And when I am six feet underground with bugs eating my brain they will get visions of you. They will smell what you smelt like and feel the traces your hands ran down my body. They will experience unimaginable pure bliss as they feast on the corner of my brain that houses you. And when they search my body, ready to devour my heart, they will find it missing, for it still belongs to you.



You left a big impact on my life, and whenever you left I would look for you in everything. I would watch you with other people, seeing you smile and it made me happy. I would stare at you, hoping you would turn your head and see me. I still craved you, I was addicted to what you gave me, I was greedy, selfish, I wanted it all to myself. I would hear about you, good and bad, I never focused on the bad because to me it never mattered. When I heard you were alone again I knew I had to contact you, I knew this would be probably my only chance to get back and show you the love I so desperatly waited to give you. I wanted to be in your arms again, I wanted you all to myself, I needed you so badly.

Breaking no contact... I was so nervous, I stared at my phone for 30 minutes trying to decide. I really missed you and was scared you were going to ignore me. Then I followed and maybe 10 minutes later you followed me back and texted me, I was so happy my sweet boy was back. I cherished every moment we had after that, I knew you didnt want anything serious but I didnt care I was so happy to have you.




I am so happy to have you in my life, you are the sweetest most precious gift I could have ever recieved from this universe. I am so thankful you are here and that we have grown onto eachother the way we have. I am thankful for the laughter, tears, pain, and happiness we have went through together. You have helped me become a better person and find my true self. You are a blessing and I wish everyone else could see. Thank you so much for being strong, I am proud of you my sweet boy. I am so proud for how long you have came, you are so amazing and brave. I aspire to be like you one day, you are the nicest most caring person I know. The world needs more people like you, you are what the world needs. I love that we can go out together and also sit in silence. I appreciate your presense.